I love you and I miss u miss u very much

Not long ago, there were five of us. Nurhasanah, Mohamad Hanif, Mohamad Hafiz, Muhammad Aziz and Mohamad Najib. But it only last for a month when Allah love one of us very much. He took him away from us. We're so happy when Najib was born, coz his face almost look alike with Hafiz. Hafiz felt so happy to have a new younger bro. He thought that he had a twin. He felt so proud to have Najib. He always ask to our mother about Najib whether he's sleeping or awake and try to hold him in his arm with helped from our mother. The difference between them is their eyebrow. Najib eyebrow's is thin unlike Hafiz, his eyebrow can be seen.

Our happiness didn't last long. A month after that, Hafiz died. He was drowned. That evening he said he wanna play with his friend. He didn't came home until nightfall. We tried to look for him everywhere, even our neighbor helped to find him, still no sign of him. 2 a.m our father and our neighbor only brought Hafiz without his soul. I cried, we cried.

Now there are only four of us. When were celebrating our birthday party, talk, lay down in the living room or hang out in my bedroom, I think about him a lot. It must be fun if he still here with us. I always pray for him in my prayer. I love you and I miss u miss u very much Mohamad Hafiz Ayub.

p/s I love you all my dear younger bro.

Syawal is Just Around The Corner

My 'baju kurung'

I went shopping with my family last Saturday. My family theme for this year is BLUE. Tawau was so crowded with people buying things for Eid. Not only muslim went out for shopping, even the non-muslim busy at the mall. Well maybe because of the sale, shirts... households... is cheap. But the groceries are sold with high price. Especially tomato... my favourite. I bought myself a 'baju kurung' and hijab. I don't think I'll buy new shoe coz I still have lot of shoe, I don't even know where to put those. Even Hanif's mouth is keep on babbling every time he comes home when he sees my shoes hihi...

Nurfazilatun Adnan

Apart from shopping, I also babysitting my little cousin Atun. She was so naughty... she ran all over the house, touch our mama vas, playing water in the bathroom, drink water and climb the stairs. Even though she cause a lot of trouble, she shined my day. It's been a while I didn't hear baby voice in our house. If she cries, I'll just look at her face for a while then, I'll comfort her.

My Cute Stuff

I pray, I pray from the bottom of my heart. Someone will come to your life and do the same what you had done...

These are my cute stuff

I wanna show you all my cute stuff. My cute little tea set. I started collecting it since I was 12. But I didn't buy it always. I only choose the best among the rest. Some of them are presents from my parents and 1 of them from someone who used to be special in my heart. My 1st tea set, I bought it using my pocket money, it costs RM12. But.. its broken now. I glue it even though it's not beautiful as before, I still keep it. Because, that's my 1st tea set.


My 1st tea set.


My 1st gift from my 1st special boyfriend.


Our mother keep it in her cupboard.

I never expect that he'll gave me this. He seem know what I like. I remember that day, I got fever, so, I didn't go to the town. He just asked Nani to give the present on his behalf. When we opened it in their room, we laughed a lot. Even though my love story with him only written in a short page, I appreciate it very much. It taught me a lot & gave me a sweet memory.

Finally...

Almost a month.. finally, I got back what belongs to me. My mum's Corning Ware & Tupperware. Not a while ago, someone asked for tomyam. So I gave him with those. He didn't return it until last Wednesday (1st April 2009). Alhamdulillah... now i feel so................... free. Maybe because there's no other thing that I have left with him. About the deodorant, I'll keep it as 1 of my collection, 1st gift from my boyfriend. My bro, Hanif, asked me to delete all his photos from my laptop. The reason is, there's no need to keep his picture, it's worthless. When I think about it, he's absolutely right. He's my younger bro, but sometimes he act like my big bro. I love you so much Mohammad Hanif Ayub...

Sweet memory of Hanif & I

Adidas deodorant

Don't You Know, I Feel it So Free

My face on the day as a single person again.

I feel like my burden is dcrease. I feel so free. Maybe I'm not suitable at all to become a guy lover. Well, now I'm happy as a single teenage girl once again. My mom is right, I'm still studying and young. Sooner or later, I'll meet someone that accept me as the way I am. An asthmatic, have thoracic kyphosis, hot tempered and 'cengeng'.