Keyakinanku

terasa sesak nafasku walaupun bukan di tempat yang berkabut
walaupun tiada masalah besar, fikiran terasa kusut
inginku bersembunyi di bawah selimut
bermimpi aku berlari menginjak pasir tanpa berkasut

alangkah bagusnya jika dunia seperti mimpi indah
menghadapi hari-hari tanpa sebarang rasa gundah
rasa kesal terbit tiba-tiba saja segeraku sirami dengan rasa tabah
aku yakin dan percaya semua yang terjadi ada hikmah

aku terkapai-kapai bagai dihempas ombak pantai
inginku berlari namun apa daya anggotaku ibarat semuanya dirantai
sungguhku bingung dengan masalah yang sukar untuk dilerai
jangan kau biarkan aku sendiri layu kemudian melonglai

aku percaya dengan takdir yang Allah sudah tulis untukku
pedihnya rasa sakit itu hingga menusuk qalbu
dalam tawa kadangkala tersembunyi air mataku
aku yakin semuanya akan hilang seiring waktu

Stay?

I'm staying here~ thanks a lot Tawau Hospital for the letter. Thanks coz you gave it EARLY.

I no longer can comfort my heart to stay even a minute here at my workplace. I really hate it here. These feeling will never fade because of certain person.

No matter how hard I try to like it here, I still can't erase he negative feeling of mine. It even affect on my work. I know I'm guilty to my client... to Allah the Almighty~

but what can I do~? My soul, my heart isn't around... my passion on my work seems to fade too... I don't want to stay...

IRRITATED!!!

I'm so tired moving in and out. Only if i got the chance move out for sure... move to my birthplace. It'll be great! There's nothing I desire the most other than going back home to my homeland.

I feel so brokenheart with the minister of education here in Malaysia. I really need to get out from here. Back then, I feel it's okay for me to stay. But now, with health condition that is unstable, problems with my housemate that having an affair with someone else's hubby... Allah.... give me strenght to stay dear Allah.

I got problems in breathing nowadays. Probably because of the rainy season. I'm okay with that. At least I have my inhaler to relieve the pain.

My housemates that having an affair. She made like, there's nothing happen between them. It's so irritating! She made me look evil.... presenting herself to others that she's kind... I'm bad!

How could you asked him to choose his lovely wifey or horrible you! You're meaningless to him. My usu already told you about the consequences. But you didn't listen... she used the most soft advice, till you did something you shouldn't as a muslimah made us angry. Why are you so cheap girl~?

I'm so glad he left you... hopefully he'll left you for good this time. It seems like you still not getting over him. Come on... what are you trying to proof? Just leave him & his wife live happily ever after with their child.
                                               
Only if people know about your true color... only if... but don't worry girl... I won't tell them. Let them know by themselves. Like I did 2 years ago. I wish one of your friends read this...