I'm letting him go

I was in love with this guy and I was stupid~ I thought we're getting married end of this year. It was all beautiful and lovely at first I think. Yes it was... Cebause, I'm the only 1 in the relationship showing the effort. The other person did not.

When it all started?
When I'm trying to asked him out with my bros and cuz, he'll give tonnes of excuses. Well, I presumed he is a busy man. He did go out with us for 2 times... I can count how many times we go out. Funny~

When was it getting worse?
I was warded... On April maybe. I don't really remember. He did not put any effort to visit his sick girlfriend at the hospital. He just texted me~ asked how I was doing~ It made me hurt a lot. I did ask him why he didn't visit me? He was busy~ We did end our relationship that month. But, I am a positive person... So I took him back...

When was it start to explode?
He promised to go out with me 1 evening. But, he forgot 😢... He said he didn't remember... That day, my heart was torn into pieces... It wasn't the 1st time he forgot... It was countless. How can you forget? I even asked my colleagues opinion. It seem absurd for a guy to forget a date. I even asked my mother bout it. She seem so disappointed with the guy.

I felt so embarrassed with myself for introducing him to my father. I shouldn't have agreed when he said he want to meet my parents.

I forgive everything that he had done. In time I will heal myself... Just like before.

Kelor

I'm looking at my aunts' face... Time flies, I remembered she's so beautiful when she's a teenage girl... Now, she's a lovely woman. 

Back then, life is hard... Bapak furthering his studies, with little amount of salary to support us all. My mamak 2nd elder brother stayed with us, so as our aunts from my Mamak side... I don't know life was hard then... 

What I love the most being with them when I was little, going down the flat where we're staying & took some 'kelor' for our dinner. Going back upstairs, went to the kitchen, took a couple of basin out & start to pluck the tiny leaves 1 by 1. It was tiring~ my mamak will only boiled it with water and added some shallots... Garlic... Lemongrass... Salt... It's a simple dish, but it's so delicious! Just dip the 'kelor' in a lime juice with a little bit of chilies... Sometimes, they cooked it with eggs... An omelette 'kelor'... It's yummy...

So today, I tried to cook the omelette 'kelor'. It didn't turn out as the way I remembered it... But it's okay... It's still delicious